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You’re reading part eighteen of my 30 (ish) day blog challenge. Here’s what you’ve missed so far:

Day 1 — Your best friend – Rachel
Day 2 — Your vices – Just Read It
Day 3 — Your parents – Barry & Carla
Day 4 — Your siblings – Barry & Daryl
Day 5 — Your dreams – I’ve got lots
Day 6 — Someone that inspires you – Stacey
Day 7 — Your job – Work in progress
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend you’ve never met – Stephanie
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet – George W. Bush
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to – Alyson
Day 11 — A deceased person you wish you could talk to – Papa Jim
Day 12 — Your dream vacation – Italy
Day 13 — Something you look forward to – Sundays
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from – Marci Marie
Day 15 — The person you miss the most – Sarah Kelley
Day 16 — Someone not in your state/country – Mallory Gilbert
Day 17 — The place you wish you were from – Port Neches

Children like to change their minds. A lot. One’s favorite color, movie, friend, could change based on how you rolled out of bed on any given moment. I wanted to be the first female president. Then, I wanted to be an olympic gymnast. And then…well, you get the picture. There were a lot of fickle things in my life and a lot of other thoughts that came and went. But I always have known the person I wished I could be.

My cousin Erica is the most amazing person I know. She was such a dear to me as a child…always treated me like an equal instead of a girl who was six years younger than her. She has always been one of those people who get along just as well with adults as she does with kids and people her own age. It’s really neat to watch.

I can remember Thanksgivings with Nanny and PawPaw (her grandparents/my great-grandparents) and he just being so willing to talk about life and then be silly. I can remember birthdays when they would make a special trip down from Houston and it would make my day so much more special. I remember her writing me letters during college and she would always send the best cards.

In the fall of 2002, my family and I evacuated for Hurricane Lili to New Braunfels…which would normally be fun, but Schlitterbahn – the most amazing water park EVER – was closed. We did have fun going to Gruene and San Marcos. And then my cousin Erica showed up for dinner. I was so excited. See this was a crucial time in my life. I was getting ready to try out to be an Indianette (our HS drill team). It was a big stinkin’ deal. Erica was on her drill team in High School – and was captain – and she was on the Strutter line at Southwest Texas State University (now just called Texas State University) so of course, I wanted that, too. After dinner that night, she came back to our hotel and we put on some shorts and practiced kicks and pirouettes and jete’s and splits and everything else for hours. It made me feel so important that she would take the time to encourage me. I did make my drill team and she came from Austin to see me perform on the field the night I was named Kicker of the Week. I had no idea she was coming and I almost got a demerit because I was so excited to see her in the stands. She came to my final drill team performance as well. She was always so encouraging to me.

In May of 2009, I was sitting at my desk at North End when someone came to the door. One of my co-workers was already up and went to answer it and I heard the most familiar voice. I jumped up from my chair and almost cried when my face saw what my ears heard. My sweet cousin that I hadn’t seen since Thanksgiving. She had no idea that I worked there. I had no idea she was coming. And it just made my spirit calm to be around her again. Best surprise ever.

She spent a few years in Morocco as a missionary and it always made me sad to not see her around the holidays especially, but I knew she was where she needed to be. But then in February, she was able to come and meet with my best friend Stacey before she embarked on her 11 month mission trip. That meant so much to me that I could connect two very important women in my life to each other and be able to give someone else the gift of her encouragement.

There have been many times that she’s met me for lunch or dinner or shopping when I’ve been in Houston, and I cherish each one so very much. She’s spent countless hours talking about family and life and has never once made me feel like I was wasting her time or getting on her nerves. I love just being able to sit with her and have her share her wisdom…for such a young woman, she’s a very old (but lively) soul. She has a lot of heart and I love that about her.

And now she’s married! She’s living her life daily with the most perfect man for her. I think of her often and pray that she’s blessed with anything and everything she could ever want. No one deserves it more. I hope that my sweet cousin knows just how much she means to me.

There are a lot of fickle things in my life and a lot of other thoughts that come and go. But I always have known the person I wished I could be.


(wasn’t she a BEAUTIFUL bride?!)


Day 19 — Something that makes you different
Day 20 — Your favorite television shows
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Your pet peeves
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — A life changing moment
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The thing you most enjoy doing
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — Your talent
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

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You’re reading part seventeen of my 30 (ish) day blog challenge. Here’s what you’ve missed so far:

Day 1 — Your best friend – Rachel
Day 2 — Your vices – Just Read It
Day 3 — Your parents – Barry & Carla
Day 4 — Your siblings – Barry & Daryl
Day 5 — Your dreams – I’ve got lots
Day 6 — Someone that inspires you – Stacey
Day 7 — Your job – Work in progress
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend you’ve never met – Stephanie
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet – George W. Bush
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to – Alyson
Day 11 — A deceased person you wish you could talk to – Papa Jim
Day 12 — Your dream vacation – Italy
Day 13 — Something you look forward to – Sundays
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from – Marci Marie
Day 15 — The person you miss the most – Sarah Kelley
Day 16 — Someone not in your state/country – Mallory Gilbert

Three years ago today, I packed everything I own into the back of my dad’s truck and moved back home. Three years ago today, I spent 13 hours thinking this was the biggest mistake of my life. Three years ago this morning at 5:32 a.m., I crawled into my parent’s bed and sobbed in my mother’s arms.

I chose to do this to myself. My best friend was getting married and I wanted to be there for her as the rest of the bridesmaids were scattered all across Texas, one even in Peru. It was nice to be home, but having only been home for small bursts of visits over the past two years, having all this time was a little more than overwhelming. Through a series of events, I found myself with no one to hang out with. I felt completely alone.

To let you understand a little better, my brave best friend – Stacey – created a photobook of sorts called Black and White and Nashville All Over. She spent an entire year taking pictures and collecting stories from people – none longer than 100 words. Regardless of where you are from, I think it’s a great look into the human psyche and is worth your money…and it makes a GREAT coffee table book. The point is, she included me in this process. I had been back in Texas for over 8 months before I made my first trip to Nashville. I was excited to spend time with my brave best friend and was real excited to have her do another shoot with me (ANY of the pictures on my facebook that you see and think, that looks good…all her handiwork). I didn’t expect my shoot to turn the way it did. When I was asked to write my “100 words” of where I was in life at that moment, this is what I put:

I’m living in the same city I spent the first 19 years of my life, but I’m an unwelcomed stranger in a foreign land. Surrounded by familiar faces and still alone. These people try – honest they do – but I’m finding that the loneliest word is honesty. If I’m being honest with myself, I have to say my only love is a far away city and it’s people who make me feel alive. So here it is – my honest admission: I’m lonely and the only place I want to get to is home. Truth hurts, but truth is all i have.

And I meant every word.

Today, I’m supposed to talk about (yes, that was the prologue) the place I wish I were from. I would put money on the fact that you’re thinking Nashville. It is every bit of who I am. But I can say, with 100% certainty that who I am would be nothing without where I’m from. And though moving home when I did was the hardest thing I’ve ever had to go through, it was the smart decision. I wouldn’t have known, nor had the pleasure to introduce you to people like Marci or Sarahor Mallory. I wouldn’t have been able to have the pleasure of serving on staff here at Cross Point.

If you want a picture glimpse into the past bit of my life, check out this blog that I never keep up with (sorry, Steph). It’s all sorts of pictures from January – May of my day-to-day life. Pay special note to how RIDICULOUS my high school football stadium is…

I love where I’m from and whole-heartedly believe that home is where your story begins.

The last two and a half years weren’t nearly as awful as they started out seeming they would be. I wouldn’t be here if it wasn’t going there. I wouldn’t be who I am without the people I’ve met in the past few years alone. I can’t imagine life without them.

I may come from a small town, but I’ve got big dreams…just wait and see.


Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Something that makes you different
Day 20 — Your favorite television shows
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Your pet peeves
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — A life changing moment
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The thing you most enjoy doing
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — Your talent
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

You’re reading part sixteen of my 30 (ish) day blog challenge. Here’s what you’ve missed so far:

Day 1 — Your best friend – Rachel
Day 2 — Your vices – Just Read It
Day 3 — Your parents – Barry & Carla
Day 4 — Your siblings – Barry & Daryl
Day 5 — Your dreams – I’ve got lots
Day 6 — Someone that inspires you – Stacey
Day 7 — Your job – Work in progress
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend you’ve never met – Stephanie
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet – George W. Bush
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to – Alyson
Day 11 — A deceased person you wish you could talk to – Papa Jim
Day 12 — Your dream vacation – Italy
Day 13 — Something you look forward to – Sundays
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from – Marci Marie
Day 15 — The person you miss the most – Sarah Kelley

I’m not that hard to get along with. No seriously, I could make friends with a brick wall. I get that from my dad. So, back in 2007 when I moved back to Texas, I wasn’t too worried about being home without many friends. I started volunteering with Young Life and met so many amazingly sweet girls that I feel like I’ve known for my whole life…but it’s only been 3 years. Sometimes, you meet someone and just know from the very first ‘hello’ that you’ve already been friends for 45 years. That’s exactly how I felt when I met my sister, Mallory Gilbert.

Malpal (which is what I like to call her…it just sounds fun…malpal) is a nut. Really, I’ve never met someone with so much spunk, A.D.D., chill factor, and sincerity all rolled in to one…which is an amazing fete. She’s a friend to many and it’s hard not to love her. She speaks my language, which is pretty hard to do. She’s got all these great little traits, but they’re so hard to explain. You’d honestly just have to meet her. But if you check out this letter, you’ll understand just why I love her:

Dearest Malpal,

Kidding me? You’re adorable. And I miss you. I’m so glad that I got to see you just a few weeks ago, though it already feels like it’s been years. Dear spring break, hurry up!

I’ve had the most fun of my life hanging around you these past few years. Your heart for your friends is so challenging. You love them fiercely, even when they are immature and stupid. You have faith in them, even when they fail you time and time again. Friends like you are one in a million, and I wouldn’t trade you for anything.

I love that you can just give me a look and I know exactly what you’re trying to say. I love that you talk with your hands and say ‘soooooo….yeah’ a lot. I love that some idiot wrote a song about you and perfectly describes you and your friends. 🙂

I know that I may be excessively selfish, but I’m praying that the only school that accepts you is Belmont so you can be closer to me. Let’s face it, the minute you get here, Port Neches will be the last place you’ll ever want to be. It’s amazing here. Nashville can’t wait to meet you…I know, she told me.

I literally just paused for 15 minutes to sign you up for Belmont info…my plan to get you here is in action. MUAHAHAHA!

Seriously though, you’ve shown me so much about how to be more laid back and silly in life. You’ve taught me how to trust people and how to really open up to them. I’m a braver girl because of you. I can’t wait to see what’s going to happen in your life. I know that there’s never going to be a limit to what you’re capable of.

hugsandgigglesandallsortsofglitter,
krystin


Day 17 — The place you wish you were from
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Something that makes you different
Day 20 — Your favorite television shows
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Your pet peeves
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — A life changing moment
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The thing you most enjoy doing
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — Your talent
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

little birdy told me…

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